"Lovely Jesus" - feat. reSEARCH, Paradox, Jeremiah Dirt

 I have a new song to release, but I don't know how to promote it. What are the best ways to let people know about it while creating a sense of urgency for it's release? I've posted twice about it on FaceBook, but I feel like my posts get ignored. I release a lot of my own music, so I think that people see "yet another release" and kind of disregard it as "normal" now. How do I create distinction between my "regular" releases and this one? It's different because this one actually has lyrics and features some respected emcees in the game. Do I let one of them release it? Paradox has the highest numbers among us all. Maybe he should release it on his platform, but how will Dirt and reSEARCH get their due royalties? How would I be involved at that point? I didn't make the beat this time, so I just "engineered" it. That's significant, but without a proper promotional engine, it'd probably perform the way my other releases have, which aren't boasting high numbers so far.  I could pay for advertisement, but I'm broke and don't have enough even for a simple short running ad. What do you think I should do?

Unworthy

I have been feeling very unworthy lately. I was frustrated just now with my mom. She was asking me about the progression of my application for disability. She implied that I needed to ask my lawyer what the status was at this point. I felt like she was being passive aggressive about it. Like I was not doing enough. I told her that there wasn't anything more I could do. I have been checking on the status through the online portal and there hasn't been any progress. I forget what was said exactly, but I got irritated with her and I was rude. That being acknowledged, she was too. She told me to "get out of her face" and to go downstairs and "just leave." That's her new "thing." Just telling me to leave. She did that once before when Loren and I were arguing. I left then as well. I went down to the Marina in my car... The one they gave me. The one they pay the gas for. The one they pay the insurance for. How terrible am I? I don't deserve anything good, yet they have been the vehicle for so much of my help... How can I be so ornery? How can I ever be so rude to them? Why am I such a bad son? Why can't I be peaceful with them? Why do they get on my nerves still even when they have done so much for me? Am I not justified anymore in getting frustrated with them? They are my biggest fans and my greatest help, but they do and say wrong things too. Have I given up my "right" to get upset at them because I get their help? Is my questioning this even right? Does this line of questioning make me even more of a terrible person? The world thinks of me as terrible already. Why am I furthering this concept of me within my relationship with my parents? I am trash. I don't deserve anything good. I have failed everyone I know. The fact that I am doing as well as I am is because of them. Not me. I don't deserve their help. I am nothing without them. Nothing gives me the "right" to treat them with any less than honor and respect. They have done nothing but help me when no one else did and when everyone else left me, they never left me. I am such a garbage person and they don't act like I am. I need to suck it up and treat them better even when they do things that are frustrating and irritating. I have to forgive them.